“It is better to be feared than loved.”
Years Old
Female
IS OFFLINE
480 POSTS & 0 LIKES
St. Miator Student
|
Post by Alice Himeno on Jan 6, 2016 20:07:50 GMT -5
The attempted smile faded a little at the blushing girl's words. Backing off with a half step backwards, her gaze shifted to the door, letting a quiet rush of air push through her teeth. Would Alice come to answer the door? Had she even heard their little conversation? Perhaps. Though if she didn't, the black widow had her stolen skeleton key.
Next came a bow and an apology. Kutsumari regarded it with a glance in Jessie's direction. Like Alice, she, too, was found of manipulation. Though hers spiraled off of sunder methods. Whereas Alice utilized flirtation, trickery, and deception, the black haired girl merely burrowed her way under others' skin like a persistent tick through blackmail and pure manipulation. Soon she'd burrow her way so deep, you couldn't remove her no matter how hard you tried. And that was just the problem the rival snowy widow had. Because the black widow played just as dangerously.
The door soon gave a soft click and opened, revealing the snowy spider though she almost just about closed it again. Icy orbs narrowed upon the sight of her rival. So she had heard correctly. Scarlet ones stared straight back. Instead of mirroring the scowl, however, Kutsumari offered a teasing smile.
"Kutsumari..." The name slid out with an edge of ice from Alice's voice. It went returned with a stuffy laugh. The smile suddenly faded afterwards from the black widow's lips, and her own tone took a fiery, childish change.
Like a foolish child, the girl raised a hand and slapped the rival white widow like she'd done so many times before upon first seeing her. Alice instinctively turned her head at the action, white ribbons of hair swirling like flurrying snow. "How could you come back and not inform me of your return?"
Letting out an icy breath, the wintry spider recovered, having not felt a thing even. The red mark of impact seemed to glow almost aganist the snowy white skin. Her frozen gaze flickered to the fuming rival widow. "It was not of any relevance." She offered in monotonous response.
"Not of any revalance? You still sure are cold, Alice! Frozen, in fact." The encounter having now lulled into a tense stillness, both rivals' attention shifted to Jessie. "Anyways, I met miss Jessie McKnight here. Your "friend" right?"
Frosted eyes shifted from their scarlet rival to the boyish girl. Now that she thought about it, she'd almost forgotten Jessie's presence for a second. What were Jessie's thoughts been on this whole situation? It was kind of childish... Alice blinked; white lashes fluttering over the two malice filled pools. Of all things, why had her rival Kutsumari have to show up. This early in the morning too. Not that she wasn't used to that. But this time she had company with her.
|
|
Years Old
IS OFFLINE
370 POSTS & 0 LIKES
St. Lulim Student
|
Post by jessie ( jessica ) mcknight on Jan 6, 2016 20:42:53 GMT -5
It happened so fast, yet it still angered her. Stepping forward she unconsciously pulled the iced girl in her arms . " what makes you have the right to slap her? "
Eyes narrowed but quickly closed only to open calmly . Meeting scarlet gaze she let Alice go. " forgive my actions Alice.."
That's right Alice had dealt with this girl before , all her life Jessie was sure of it. It wasn't right for her to interfere with their on goings . Though Jessie still seemed a bit upset .
|
|
“It is better to be feared than loved.”
Years Old
Female
IS OFFLINE
480 POSTS & 0 LIKES
St. Miator Student
|
Post by Alice Himeno on Jan 6, 2016 21:43:41 GMT -5
Alice emitted a quiet noise as she was suddenly pulled into the into the arms of the boyish girl, tensing in slight surprise. This action brought an amused smirk to the black widow's lips. Even more so at the question that had been asked. When the snowy spider was let go of, she offered a quiet, "It's quite alright."
As for the question that has been asked, Kutsumari couldn't help but laugh. What right did this girl similarly have to step in? She seemed upset too. What a measly thing between rivals to flare up about, she chided in her mind. "It's nothing requiring your concern." She responded with a dismissing wave of a hand. "Besides, it's not like she can really feel it or anything."
And that was true. The white widow hadn't felt the aggressive action. She'd felt the impact of course, but not the pain or the resonating sting. Well, could say she was almost numb to the feeling of the familiar impact at this point, too. Though the way Kutsumari had said it was almost mocking. Alice merely crossed her arms, emulating a ticked off snowy feline.
|
|
Years Old
IS OFFLINE
370 POSTS & 0 LIKES
St. Lulim Student
|
Post by jessie ( jessica ) mcknight on Jan 6, 2016 21:51:59 GMT -5
Besides it wasn't like she could feel it anyway. Some hoe that made Jessie even more angry, she hated to say it but she had a bit of her father temper, though nothing as bad as his by far. " I might not have any right, but I know what's messed up, just because Alice can't feel it doesn't mean you get to touch her in such a way... If I see you take advantage of her numbness again I won't apologize as I slap you back "
Her words were spit out , and she felt guilty in doing so. Really she didn't know what came over her. Yet this shadow of Alice wasn't giving off a good vibe not in the slightest. As Jessie spoke though her heart pounded louder for Alice then ever before , she felt protective of Alice. Hitting her lip she realized how very close she was to the black haired spider. In anger shed gotten scarily close. Stepping back she clenched her hands " I..."
Ah shed only made things worse... How'd she make such a mess of this, turning from the black widow to face the now snowy kitten she couldn't look into the ice eyes " sorry.."
The words came out bitterly, still up set her hole body was once again tense.
|
|
“It is better to be feared than loved.”
Years Old
Female
IS OFFLINE
480 POSTS & 0 LIKES
St. Miator Student
|
Post by Alice Himeno on Jan 6, 2016 22:40:49 GMT -5
Kutsumari listened to Jessie's words. Or, was it more of a threat? Either way, she stood her ground in wake of it, unphased. This "friend of Alice's" sure seemed protective of the snowy girl. Having known Alice for quite a while, she knew well that the girl didn't like being protected very much. Said it made her feel weak, if the black widow remembered correctly.
The black haired girl found Jessie to have gotten pretty close to her during her defense of Alice. Ominously, so. But yet she failed to flinch. She had actually found this sudden protective side to be somewhat intriguing herself. Did this girl care for the white widow? If so, how much? Such amusing inquisitions.
When the overall flames of Jessie's temper seemed to have sloughed off a bit, an apology was given. Alice regarded her with a flick of an ivory hand. "It's alright."
She did dislike being protected because it really did make her feel slightly weak and vulnerable -- unable to stand up for herself. And that was something the snowy spider highly disliked. Though Jessie's protection had surprised her a bit. Just like it had back at the day at the beach. But caring for a spider often resulted in putting yourself in harm's way. Not to mention, the spider could still bite regardless.
Kutsumari eventually pushed an annoyed stream of air from her lips. "Messed up? Is an old quarrel between rivals messed up?"
Thinking better of it, she let a smirk flitter across her lips. "Or do you just care that much about dear Alice, hm?"
|
|
Years Old
IS OFFLINE
370 POSTS & 0 LIKES
St. Lulim Student
|
Post by jessie ( jessica ) mcknight on Jan 6, 2016 22:56:54 GMT -5
Her heart pounded as the black widows words were heard. What did she feel for Alice? Was this more then like? Closing her eyes she thought for a moment . Letting her emotions fill her she parted her lips. " Yea.. I do "
I can't do this I can't face Alice now , turning away from the both of them she quickly walked away and rounded the corner hugging the wall she let a few deep breath fill her chest. ' do I love her? '
This was Jessie's thoughts as she closed her eyes hearing foot steps she stood straight and kept walking . Though it was just a maid entering the hall she just couldn't stop. Now she was being rude to both the girls .
Alice must think she's crazy, she should apologize..but still her feet didn't stop moving until she was out side. The wind hit her as she opened the door she went to the hiding spot Alice had shown her and sat down holding her head . ' I can't love her can I? '
|
|
“It is better to be feared than loved.”
Years Old
Female
IS OFFLINE
480 POSTS & 0 LIKES
St. Miator Student
|
Post by Alice Himeno on Jan 6, 2016 23:43:15 GMT -5
The answer came out a positive one. Jessie did care for the white widow. Quite a lot, too, based off of what Kutsumari had asked. Yet the boyish girl next had walked away without another word. That...was an interesting reaction. Both monochromatic widows exchanged glances with each other; ghostly blue clashing with wine-colored scarlet.
"My, my, it looks like someone likes you, Alice." The black widow laughed.
Icy eyes narrowed at the teasing claim. Of course she knew Jessie liked her. The girl had confessed that at the beach. Though it was just like Kutsumari to tease even if she didn't know that of course. But...just how much did the boyish girl like her? Letting an icy breath slide out, Alice offered a signerature flick of a lily-white hand.
"I suppose." She mused softly. "I must bid you farewell for now, though, Kutsumari."
Turning gracefully in the opposite direction of her rival, she proceeded to glide off down the hall in search for Jessie, meanwhile leaving Kutsumari laughing to herself about the whole thing. The snowy spider checked through a few select rooms before descending the main stairway to continue her search outside. A few maids scurried around here and there tending to manor's interior all the while.
Charlotte had returned briefly to open the door for her snowy mistress, earning a soft "thank you" for her assistance. Where could she be? Spiders are quite adept at locating lost prey. Though Jessie still wasn't quite prey. What even was she? The widow still hadn't settled on a proper label for her. Ah, why was she contemplating that right now?
Black, heeled boots tapped quietly across the courtyard. Where to look? Ah, wait a moment... Changing direction with a soft, sharp turn of a heel, the snowy spider made her way ever so quietly towards their hiding spot among the white roses yesterday. This could be it...
"Jessie?" Rolled off pale lips monotonously.
|
|
Years Old
IS OFFLINE
370 POSTS & 0 LIKES
St. Lulim Student
|
Post by jessie ( jessica ) mcknight on Jan 6, 2016 23:53:07 GMT -5
Love ? What that really it? If so, could she even tell Alice after all,Alice had yet to respond to her previous confession. If Alice didn't feel the same there would be no way shed love the tomboy . Sighing the pink haired girl laid in the grass. Lettings her fingers glide over the green grass she plucked a few from the ground.
Even if Alice liked her... She barely showed it..would a relationship even be possible. Sighing her head lifted off the ground at her name being called . Looking in the widow of roses she blinked . " Alice?.."
Why'd she let the girl know she was hear was beyond her. But she had done it . " I am sorry about all that.. I don't know what got into me."
Her voice was low and soft. Slightly afraid to know Alices thoughts she sat up. Letting her head rest on her bent knees she looked at the girls black heals . Slowly her pink gaze met an icy one .
|
|
“It is better to be feared than loved.”
Years Old
Female
IS OFFLINE
480 POSTS & 0 LIKES
St. Miator Student
|
Post by Alice Himeno on Jan 7, 2016 0:19:46 GMT -5
The widow's own name was echoed back in the same manner. Alice had successfully located the boyish girl. "It's quite alright."
The way Jessie looked right now... It reminded her of a sad puppy. Stepping over the thin row of low hedges and onto the grass, she knelt beside her - albeit cautiously that is, as she did not know if the girl was upset her not. Black sock swathed legs folded elegantly underneath her delicate frame, leaving the hem of the lacy black skirt to pool over the carpet of white rose petaled grass. The snowy spider was a bit concerned about Jessie she'd admit.
"Are you alright?"
Was that even the right question to ask? Alice didn't even know what had caused the girl to walk off like that in the first place. A sigh fell from her lips. Small white braids swayed in the breeze all the while, fanning the snowy remainder of white hair into glistening crested shapes.
|
|
Years Old
IS OFFLINE
370 POSTS & 0 LIKES
St. Lulim Student
|
Post by jessie ( jessica ) mcknight on Jan 7, 2016 0:32:43 GMT -5
Am I alright? Jessie thought for a moment. She wasn't upset anymore, yet she was still feeling a bit uneasy. Wondering how to respond she simply found her self nodding, taking a deep breath she finally found her words , though were they the right ones. " How do you feel about .me..us that is.."
Letting a deep breath in as she allowed it to leave it caught in her chest, it was like suddenly the weight of the world was on it now. What if Alice did say anything? What if she didn't like the answer. Her body was trembling , although was this trembling really her body or was it the web beneath her? Jessie found it funny, a moment ago she couldn't bare to look at the white widow now she didn't dare look away.
Letting one ha d fall to the grass below she couldn't help but unconsciously pull at the grass, her nervousness was filling her each second it took to hear a response then another uncomfortable unconscious act came . " I - I need to know Alice "
She didn't mean to raise her voice, in fact it might have just sounded like it to her seeing as her voice was previously stuck as a whisper. Maybe now she had just gained what little courage she had to speak normally , what ever the case her words echoed in her head. Finally her breath was let go.
|
|
“It is better to be feared than loved.”
Years Old
Female
IS OFFLINE
480 POSTS & 0 LIKES
St. Miator Student
|
Post by Alice Himeno on Jan 7, 2016 1:16:44 GMT -5
The question that was presented jolted the widow sightly. How...did she feel? How did she feel? Really, the snowy spider didn't know... She'd never felt for someone before. Neither had she ever let someone get as close as Jessie had, if you could even call that close
Spiders were not meant to feel nor for others be felt for by others. More so widows. Alice had experienced so many declarations of false puppy-dog love yet she had felt nothing for any of those foolish insects. She'd shattered so many hearts. Misplaced or never bothered to learn countless names. Because she didn't care. It was a game to her. All of it was. For she was a spider and anyone who waltzed into her web, prey.
But Jessie... Jessie wasn't quite prey. No, she hadn't procured that label. In a way, Alice had spared her from that label. Spared her for the sake of their practice together. Though she could never be spared from the venomous fangs. There had been moments, however, where the snowy widow could have bitten. She'd bared her fangs, yes, but the bite never followed through so far. Even that kiss at the beach; that small bite during their first actual kiss... It hadn't been a widow's venomous bite. Really, it had been one of soft possession at the time to display to others that Jessie had earned a spider's trust slightly at the time.
Then there was that kiss right here in this hiding spot. One of passion. Had it been true passion? Perhaps on Jessie's part. But...the widow had had a contribution in the augmentation of that as well... What... What did liking someone even feel like? How would she even know? Ah, it was just so frustrating!
Icy eyes narrowed subtly in habit, tightening at the white lash fringes edges. "I don't know..."
It was an honest answer. Not quite a satisfying one but honest. They weren't playing there game at the moment. No, this situation felt far too serious. Frosting her icy guard, she pondered on the second thing the boyish girl had said. Needing to know.
"Why?" She next inquired softly, keeping her gaze in the mixed pink light of the other's.
Deep down, Alice did like her partner, even though she could never admit it. She'd never known what that felt like. Nor heartbreak or love sickness. All she knew was from the side of the spider, not the doe-eyed prey.
|
|
Years Old
IS OFFLINE
370 POSTS & 0 LIKES
St. Lulim Student
|
Post by jessie ( jessica ) mcknight on Jan 7, 2016 1:27:51 GMT -5
She watched as glass like eyes narrowed. Jessie was slightly taken back but then a feeling came over her, those eyes weren't necessarily out of anger but habit. Jessie had gotten to use to the the snowy spiders answers bit yet this one only made her sigh. She understood, that wasn't it..but maybe she wanted more. Yet when the iced figure asked why she needed to know she couldn't take it.
" Isn't it clear? ... After all the times I could have fallen...all the times I pushed and pushed to get close to you...you still didn't let me fall.. "
Moving her body she knelt infront of the girl. Taking a shaky breath she continued." I ... Wasn't sure when I first admitted my feeling to you ...because really id never thought of liking a girl.. But now after all of our practices, at each point we kissed...my feelings got stronger..."
Leaning close she kissed the girl it was soft, slow but didn't last long just enough to shock the iced girl..that or make her feelings known. Yet as Jessie pulled away she mentally said jeez to her self. " Alice as I said before ... I don't care if I freeze ...if I become frozen solid...but. . I want to be with you..because I-"
Locking there gazes she let the last words fall from her lips. " I love you..."
|
|
“It is better to be feared than loved.”
Years Old
Female
IS OFFLINE
480 POSTS & 0 LIKES
St. Miator Student
|
Post by Alice Himeno on Jan 7, 2016 9:55:39 GMT -5
Alice listened to the boyish girl's words. That was true. She hadn't let Jessie fall. All those times she could have severed her web; all those times the girl had been dangling by a thread -- it could have been so easy. Just one traitorous motion. That was all it would have taken. Yet... For some reason she hadn't.
No, no, there had to be a reason. Somewhere under the frozen shell of her own ice. But she couldn't melt it to find it. Wouldn't, would be the more correct word. Nothing could melt the ice easily. But there had been times no matter how much the widow desired to not believe it, that Jessie had succeeded in melting it ever so slightly. Be it with her presence, warmth, or passion.
A soft kiss was delivered next, but Alice didn't quite react to it. The warmth that would have remained on her chilled lips quickly froze over in the ice of her guard that had surrounded her again. She didn't even really feel the kiss even with the flurrying of her thoughts. But...then came something she hadn't been prepared to hear.
"I love you."
The words almost burnt the widow. Jessie...loved her? Not simply liked anymore but...loved? She'd trudged through the snow, suffered the risk of being bitten and frozen, and waltzed out onto the fine threads of her web so many times... Even though she had claimed she was afraid, never once had she fled out of that understandable fear of the widow... And now the boyish girl's feelings had blossomed into this.
Frosted eyes softened for a moment before allowing themselves to narrow once more. This confession... Even though Alice deep down-- She couldn't...
"Don't say that." For once, the snowy spider's voice had risen slightly above its natural quietness. Then it took a decrescendo into a slightly softer but still firm tone. "Loving a spider, not caring if you freeze along the way... How could you say that?"
She'd lost her composure almost. Conflicted icy eyes averted from the mixed pink ones. What would Jessie say to that? Why was breaking this girl like so many others before....so difficult unlike those other foolish insects?
|
|
Years Old
IS OFFLINE
370 POSTS & 0 LIKES
St. Lulim Student
|
Post by jessie ( jessica ) mcknight on Jan 7, 2016 18:31:12 GMT -5
This was all confusing, for the both of them it seemed. Sitting up she looked at the iced figure, so she wasn't sure, of anything. Part of her felt better because of this , yet some how it worried her. " why can't you see .. That it doesn't matter if your a spider, your someone that can be loved if you let your self let it in."
Looking at the white haired girl before her . " Just try...to let your guard down...try it you might end up liking it..."
Softly smile yet there is a slight knot of worry that tightens over her hear and she waits on a response . " I can't...i can't change my feelings Alice."
|
|
“It is better to be feared than loved.”
Years Old
Female
IS OFFLINE
480 POSTS & 0 LIKES
St. Miator Student
|
Post by Alice Himeno on Jan 7, 2016 20:28:14 GMT -5
Let her guard down... Let her guard down? That was like asking her to throw out the entirety of her being... Alice blinked, her frozen gaze returning to the other's face. That wasn't... Icy eyes narrowed slightly and she shook her head, sending a shower of white ribbons of hair swirling like albino serpents in the breeze. She shifted back a little.
Alice didn't know anything about feelings. True feelings, that was. She'd dealt with the foolish confessions of many a random prey. Childish, dreamy statements that had evolved from the foolish desire to be loved. Yet the widow had destroyed each one. Crushed all the puppy-dog infatuations by her own unfeeling hands.
But this... What Jessie felt... Was it true? Or perhaps...was she just like all the others. There were truth in her words --- truth Alice didn't understand. That feelings couldn't be changed. Though dropping her icy guard. That wasn't any different.
"And I cannot lower my guard so easily." Finding her voice, it was quieter than she had meant, yet mantained an edge of her iced guard. "What you feel for me --- love... It cannot possibly be sincere... Infatuation, maybe. But love..."
These were words she was almost too familiar with saying. They came out almost robotically, but with an unreadable edge. Jessie was still not quite prey. Those words had been geared towards her normal response to such confessions. Though this was no such confession. And Alice... Did she possibly harbor feelings for this girl....? This was all so frustrating; so confusing to the widow.
But...those words had been admittedly harder to say this time.
|
|