Post by Rin Minigawa on Aug 11, 2015 21:59:29 GMT -5
It's been only six months since I joined the survey corps. Everyone on the squad knows I've got it bad for Captain Levi and I get teased often. Of course, no one teases the captain, and usually, most teasing taking place toward me about him stops as soon as he enters the room. Usually, this weird silence is followed by suspicious glares from the captain, and a lot of snickering glances between us from the to others, while I silently die of embarrassment beneath his cold stare. Does he know? Probably. Captain Levi doesn't strike me as the oblivious type, but more the type who wouldn't be distracted by such frivolity. But that's alright, I'm happy fighting along side him. Plus, it's not like he never talks to me, shouting orders is talking right? He even knows my name, sure, it's just the barking of my last name, but at least he knows it; granted he has to since I'm in his charge, but still...if only he would notice me.
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It was a warm night, beautiful, if it weren't for the stark terror suppressed behind serious and focused eyes following two hulking figures. Titans. These gigantic monsters, heartless devouring monsters had wandered close to our camp and we were all on edge; ready to fight. One four meter and one nine meter, nothing Captain Levi probably couldn't handle by himself, but the whole squad was ready to fly. It was dark, and our campfire had been snuffed immediately upon spotting them. It seemed they hadn't noticed us, they were wandering stupidly, less active without sunlight, but even so, the fact they were moving at all and this close was plenty cause for concern. We'd camped in the forest for cover, but it hadn't been enough. By now, we were all in the trees, still smelling the smoke of the campfire and even worse, the stink of the titans.
There was a sound, but I could hardly tell what it was over the pounding of my heart in my ears. We were all moving then, flying through the trees, swooping in to take them out. I was a distraction, flying past the titan's face to get it's attention while my comrade flew in from behind to take it out, just like our training. It went off without a hitch, even though I felt like I was going to die as my 3D gear pulled me by mere feet in front of the titan's face. However, as the four meter titan fell behind me, I realized I was sailing straight for the nine meter. I hit my 3D gear to send a rop flying to my right, but it was too late, the titan's massive hand was there before me suddenly like a wall. I slammed against it and might have plummeted straight down if it's fingers hadn't tightened around me. I felt like I was being crushed, my arms pinned helplessly against my sides. even with my blades out, I couldn't move at all, not even a little. It was like being held by a mountain closing on all sides. I couldn't breathe. My head dangling helplessly, I couldn't scream, I couldn't do anything but watch that horrible gaping mouth, and that smile. That terrible, hellish grin. The titan's expression was stupid, a stupid awful grin. I was going to die, but suddenly there was smoke everywhere and the the titan leaned forward. It was dead, falling toward the earth, and if I wasn't released from it's grip, the impact would kill me too. I struggled wither fervor, but it was no use, the thing's hand was like stone.
I suddenly cried out, coughing violently and gulping air as the pressure around my body was released, only to have the wind immediately knocked out of me again. fast, like a viper's strike, the thing's fingers had been cut off, and there was an arm around my waist as I was yanked to safety. I was backwards, hanging like an animal with my limbs dangling, watching the thing fall to the ground in a heap. I saw my comrades scatter to the trees, probably securing the area, but we were heading away from them to avoid being crushed by the titan's body. My savior's 3D gear took us high into the trees where I was put down, my back to the trunk.
I slumped down like a pile of spaghetti. My heart was still racing, I was in shock. How could I have been so careless? How could I not have seen the second titan? I could have died, I could have...that terrible grin, the stench of it's breath. Nightmares, living nightmares...it was awful!
I didn't realize it at first, I thought I couldn't breathe because the titan had broken my ribs, but I wasn't hurt, I was sobbing. Choking on my tears. I'd fought them before, but not at night. I'd killed at least five, with 8 assists, which weren't impressive stats at all, but even so, I'd never been that close to being eaten, pushed head first into such an awful smile. How could they smile? it made me sick.
I was becoming hysterical hyperventilating, but a sudden impact to my left cheek forced me to snap out of it. I was breathing, short, uneven breaths, but breathing. My throat was sore, had I been screaming too? My crying turned to whimpering as I got a hold of myself, looking up at the person who had hit me. Standing over me with his arms crossed, his usual frown eminent in the moon light was my captain.
"Levi-heicho!" I said, choking on another sob, an involuntary spasm of my lungs from crying so hard. I knew my face was a mess, snot, tears and drool from my episode. I was a complete wreck. But his face wasn't judgmental or disgusted. It wasn't anything. He just glared his usual glare.
"Can you walk?" he asked.
I immediately felt the answer to that was an overwhelming 'no.' No way. My whole body felt like it had been replaced with Jello. Weakness filled me and my nerves, but I forced myself to try, wiping my face with my sleeve. I couldn't just sit there whimpering. I staggered to my feet, trembling all over from the sheer amount of exertion it took to stand. I leaned fully against the massive tree trunk behind me for support. While it took significant effort to move, nothing was broken, bruised and sore, but not broken.
I saw the slightest approval in his gaze, and the longer I stood there, the quieter my breathing became until I was calm. I wiped my face some more.
"Your gear isn't broken is it?" he asked.
I looked to my right, that was fine, then to my left, where the 3D unit hung at my side, with a large crack in it, the launcher was shot.
"The left side is cracked," it had most likely broken instead of my hip or my leg, I was grateful for that.
"Merde," he cursed in french, "I'll carry you back."
Now? I thought. Now? While they were still out here? but they were always out here. I wished we could stay put until daylight, but that was a coward's thinking, and stupid. The titans were more active during the day, surely it was safer now, while less of them were active.
I nodded solemnly, even as my heart was racing. I'd have to get on his back, holding on to him, probably with all four limbs as we sailed back through the treetops to regroup with the others. Once they saw me, I'd surely never live it down. Perhaps ten minutes ago I'd have said I'd let a titan eat me before enduring that humiliation, but now...I'd gladly take the ridicule. Besides, I'd never been this close to him, probably wouldn't be again, touching him at all, much less like this.
Then I remembered where his hand had been a moment ago, his arm securely wrapped around my middle, hand on my belly, holding me tightly against his hard muscled form. He was a lot stronger than he looked, definitely stronger than me. I was glad my face was red from crying so he wouldn't see how red it was at the thought of his touch. He turned around, watching the forest and crouched slightly so I could get on. I was shorter than him, but only by a few centimeters, which was saying something as he wasn't very tall himself. It wasn't too difficult to get in position that wouldn't be in the way of his gear or his blades, but I managed. I considered leaving my gear behind, but I was sure I could fix it later, it was too valuable to discard. Levi was now encumbered with me on his back. Fighting would be difficult if not impossible for him.
"Ready." he said. It wasn't a question to ask if I was ready, it was simply an announcement that he was going and I had better hold on. My trepidation at touching him had me thinking I would hold onto him lightly, but that was dashed as we launched forward and my arms tightened like a small child around a safety rail.I clung to him as hard as I could to keep from flinging off. he was solid though, not a part of his body was soft or forgiving at all, a warrior's body, a solider's body. It felt safe holding on to him. He smelled of sunlight, smoke, and titan blood. My face was turned with my cheek against his shoulder, I couldn't help trying to memorize everything about this moment.
"MERDE!" he almost shouted and we yanked to the left so hard my neck hurt, and nearly knocking me loose. We swung around the nearest tree and then hung from it before Levi dropped us to the thick branch below. There was another titan in our path, it was huge, 18 meters or more. But it just stood there, it's back to us. it didn't turn around, just slightly wobbled in place as if it might fall over at any moment.
None of the others in the squad were anywhere in sight.
"Get off, I'll take care of it," he said, nearly throwing me off his back.
"Captain, don't! Let's just go a different way, my gear is broken, I can't flank you!" I pleaded.
"I don't need you." he said with no emotion at all.
I hardly had my footing before he took off. I was knocked off balance and nearly fell off the branch. I cursed, but watched him in the dark, his steel glinting under the moon. I saw him drawing closer, starting his signature spin attack when suddenly a humongous tree in front of the titan fell in it's path, followed by a second, much more active titan. Levi changed course, if what we knew about titan was true, the active one was far more of threat than the dormant one. If we were right, the first titan would simple stay there, not doing anything as long as he didn't get too close. He flew out of sight after the second titan. I couldn't see him anymore, but a loud crash told me he'd killed it.
But then the first titan turned toward the sound, and started moving! Levi! He didn't know it was after him! It started to move faster, I couldn't just sit there and watch.
Even with my gear half busted, I didn't even think. I launched forward with my right hip and pushed my body to spin, turning so I could launch forward again with the same hip. I felt the muscles in my lower back and hips screaming at the strain, it was hurting my entire body to do this, but it didn't matter, just a little closer!!
I had my blades out, I was rushing forward in a terrible spin-launch rhythm, when I spotted Levi far below. I could hardly make him out through the smoke and dark, but there he was. My pupils shrink in horror, he was trapped, pinned beneath a massive tree limb, probably ripped form the trees as the titan had fallen. This other titan drew nearer to him, starting to run, it had a smile that went back too far, almost to it's ears. I hate the smiling ones. I decided. I hate them all, but I hate those most. it was coming for him, but it didn't see a fallen tree in it's path, the one knocked over my the first titan and it started to trip right as my 3d gear planted a hook right in it's spine. It screamed, but I slammed against it and ran up it's back, faster than it's terrible fingers, reaching it neck and slicing out that critical gash. It was dead. It fell the rest of the way to land steaming and lifeless on the earth. I ran and jumped off it's shoulder, straight for my trapped captain. The tree limb was merely a splinter of itself, but it was taller than I was, and I couldn't have wrapped my arms around it's girth. I ran forward using all my momentum to push it. Perhaps the combined strength of three or more men could push this off of him, but I was just me. I could't leave him here to look for help or wait for someone to find us. We'd be titan fodder, or if not, he'd lose circulation in his legs. I couldn't think, I had to work immediately.
I cried out at the exertion as Levi struggled to get free as well. My boots slid back against the forest floor, but the limb was moving. I pushed harder and something in my shoulder gave out with a white hot tearing sensation, I all but screamed but pushed through it. I felt it rock, I grit my teeth.
"Let it go!" ordered Levi, I heard him get free and I obeyed with another cry, jumping back to avoid being crushed by it.
I expected him to hit me, or yell at me for disobeying his order to stay put. Instead he slumped against a tree clutching his right leg.
"Is it broken?" I asked, holding out my hands as if to help him.
"I'm fine," he answered, "but my gear is shot."
I cursed. Now we were stuck, up river without a paddle. We'd never make it far like this. I felt myself suddenly bristling, so much for not needing me, he'd be dead without me and he knew it. We were even, but regardless, that didn't help us now, except that we were both alive and only had each other to thank.
I looked around, there was no where we could go besides the roots of the enormous tree.
"Come on," I said, "at least we can hide here."
He scoffed, "There's no hiding from them."
That was the last thing said for a long time. I was sore all over, the most pain coming from my lower back, my left hip, and my shoulder most of all. I noticed though, that Levi was putting a lot of pressure on his right leg, and his white pants were red down to his knee. That was a lot of blood, at this rate he'd pass out. I pushed myself forward and untucked my shirt, pulling the fabric until it tore. "What are you doing?" he asked, a hint of surprise in his voice that threatened reprimanding.
"Making you a tourniquet, what's it look like?"
He seemed about to say something but thought better of it. Once again my girlish heart started pounding; his thigh, I was going to tie a tourniquet around his thigh! I tried to be professional and not think about how close my hands were to such an intimate place, even fantasizing was pointless. We were both very injured, and realistically something like that would never happen between us. I pulled the fabric tight, but my shoulder screamed in protest. I couldn't use that arm very well it seemed and Levi's hands slid over mine so he could tie it himself. I quickly pulled my hands away, secretly happy he'd touched them, even if they had only been in the way.
Satisfied with his knot, I looked up and saw his eyes. The same face as always, some mixture of sadness and anger, a permanent shadow over his expression of one who has seen more horror than any human should have to bear. I immediately looked away, glad of teh darkness hiding my blush, though perhaps he'd see it in the moonlight anyway.
"Thanks," he said finally, after staring at me forever.
I nodded, "I should thank you too," I started. he was safe. I knew how dangerous my actios had been, how we both could have died. But his actions were dangerous too, there was a chance we could have slipped by unnoticed. We had both been reckless. "We all need each other." I said, as if to reprehend his statement about not needing me, "Always."
I saw his eyes harden, and then soften every so slightly.
It was growing cold, but the respect I saw in his eyes warmed me.
"There they are!" came a voice from above, it was our squad. I was relieved, but I couldn't move. My muscles where locking up from sitting too long. We were saved that night, in more ways than one. We had even saved each other. We'd never forget it.
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It was a warm night, beautiful, if it weren't for the stark terror suppressed behind serious and focused eyes following two hulking figures. Titans. These gigantic monsters, heartless devouring monsters had wandered close to our camp and we were all on edge; ready to fight. One four meter and one nine meter, nothing Captain Levi probably couldn't handle by himself, but the whole squad was ready to fly. It was dark, and our campfire had been snuffed immediately upon spotting them. It seemed they hadn't noticed us, they were wandering stupidly, less active without sunlight, but even so, the fact they were moving at all and this close was plenty cause for concern. We'd camped in the forest for cover, but it hadn't been enough. By now, we were all in the trees, still smelling the smoke of the campfire and even worse, the stink of the titans.
There was a sound, but I could hardly tell what it was over the pounding of my heart in my ears. We were all moving then, flying through the trees, swooping in to take them out. I was a distraction, flying past the titan's face to get it's attention while my comrade flew in from behind to take it out, just like our training. It went off without a hitch, even though I felt like I was going to die as my 3D gear pulled me by mere feet in front of the titan's face. However, as the four meter titan fell behind me, I realized I was sailing straight for the nine meter. I hit my 3D gear to send a rop flying to my right, but it was too late, the titan's massive hand was there before me suddenly like a wall. I slammed against it and might have plummeted straight down if it's fingers hadn't tightened around me. I felt like I was being crushed, my arms pinned helplessly against my sides. even with my blades out, I couldn't move at all, not even a little. It was like being held by a mountain closing on all sides. I couldn't breathe. My head dangling helplessly, I couldn't scream, I couldn't do anything but watch that horrible gaping mouth, and that smile. That terrible, hellish grin. The titan's expression was stupid, a stupid awful grin. I was going to die, but suddenly there was smoke everywhere and the the titan leaned forward. It was dead, falling toward the earth, and if I wasn't released from it's grip, the impact would kill me too. I struggled wither fervor, but it was no use, the thing's hand was like stone.
I suddenly cried out, coughing violently and gulping air as the pressure around my body was released, only to have the wind immediately knocked out of me again. fast, like a viper's strike, the thing's fingers had been cut off, and there was an arm around my waist as I was yanked to safety. I was backwards, hanging like an animal with my limbs dangling, watching the thing fall to the ground in a heap. I saw my comrades scatter to the trees, probably securing the area, but we were heading away from them to avoid being crushed by the titan's body. My savior's 3D gear took us high into the trees where I was put down, my back to the trunk.
I slumped down like a pile of spaghetti. My heart was still racing, I was in shock. How could I have been so careless? How could I not have seen the second titan? I could have died, I could have...that terrible grin, the stench of it's breath. Nightmares, living nightmares...it was awful!
I didn't realize it at first, I thought I couldn't breathe because the titan had broken my ribs, but I wasn't hurt, I was sobbing. Choking on my tears. I'd fought them before, but not at night. I'd killed at least five, with 8 assists, which weren't impressive stats at all, but even so, I'd never been that close to being eaten, pushed head first into such an awful smile. How could they smile? it made me sick.
I was becoming hysterical hyperventilating, but a sudden impact to my left cheek forced me to snap out of it. I was breathing, short, uneven breaths, but breathing. My throat was sore, had I been screaming too? My crying turned to whimpering as I got a hold of myself, looking up at the person who had hit me. Standing over me with his arms crossed, his usual frown eminent in the moon light was my captain.
"Levi-heicho!" I said, choking on another sob, an involuntary spasm of my lungs from crying so hard. I knew my face was a mess, snot, tears and drool from my episode. I was a complete wreck. But his face wasn't judgmental or disgusted. It wasn't anything. He just glared his usual glare.
"Can you walk?" he asked.
I immediately felt the answer to that was an overwhelming 'no.' No way. My whole body felt like it had been replaced with Jello. Weakness filled me and my nerves, but I forced myself to try, wiping my face with my sleeve. I couldn't just sit there whimpering. I staggered to my feet, trembling all over from the sheer amount of exertion it took to stand. I leaned fully against the massive tree trunk behind me for support. While it took significant effort to move, nothing was broken, bruised and sore, but not broken.
I saw the slightest approval in his gaze, and the longer I stood there, the quieter my breathing became until I was calm. I wiped my face some more.
"Your gear isn't broken is it?" he asked.
I looked to my right, that was fine, then to my left, where the 3D unit hung at my side, with a large crack in it, the launcher was shot.
"The left side is cracked," it had most likely broken instead of my hip or my leg, I was grateful for that.
"Merde," he cursed in french, "I'll carry you back."
Now? I thought. Now? While they were still out here? but they were always out here. I wished we could stay put until daylight, but that was a coward's thinking, and stupid. The titans were more active during the day, surely it was safer now, while less of them were active.
I nodded solemnly, even as my heart was racing. I'd have to get on his back, holding on to him, probably with all four limbs as we sailed back through the treetops to regroup with the others. Once they saw me, I'd surely never live it down. Perhaps ten minutes ago I'd have said I'd let a titan eat me before enduring that humiliation, but now...I'd gladly take the ridicule. Besides, I'd never been this close to him, probably wouldn't be again, touching him at all, much less like this.
Then I remembered where his hand had been a moment ago, his arm securely wrapped around my middle, hand on my belly, holding me tightly against his hard muscled form. He was a lot stronger than he looked, definitely stronger than me. I was glad my face was red from crying so he wouldn't see how red it was at the thought of his touch. He turned around, watching the forest and crouched slightly so I could get on. I was shorter than him, but only by a few centimeters, which was saying something as he wasn't very tall himself. It wasn't too difficult to get in position that wouldn't be in the way of his gear or his blades, but I managed. I considered leaving my gear behind, but I was sure I could fix it later, it was too valuable to discard. Levi was now encumbered with me on his back. Fighting would be difficult if not impossible for him.
"Ready." he said. It wasn't a question to ask if I was ready, it was simply an announcement that he was going and I had better hold on. My trepidation at touching him had me thinking I would hold onto him lightly, but that was dashed as we launched forward and my arms tightened like a small child around a safety rail.I clung to him as hard as I could to keep from flinging off. he was solid though, not a part of his body was soft or forgiving at all, a warrior's body, a solider's body. It felt safe holding on to him. He smelled of sunlight, smoke, and titan blood. My face was turned with my cheek against his shoulder, I couldn't help trying to memorize everything about this moment.
"MERDE!" he almost shouted and we yanked to the left so hard my neck hurt, and nearly knocking me loose. We swung around the nearest tree and then hung from it before Levi dropped us to the thick branch below. There was another titan in our path, it was huge, 18 meters or more. But it just stood there, it's back to us. it didn't turn around, just slightly wobbled in place as if it might fall over at any moment.
None of the others in the squad were anywhere in sight.
"Get off, I'll take care of it," he said, nearly throwing me off his back.
"Captain, don't! Let's just go a different way, my gear is broken, I can't flank you!" I pleaded.
"I don't need you." he said with no emotion at all.
I hardly had my footing before he took off. I was knocked off balance and nearly fell off the branch. I cursed, but watched him in the dark, his steel glinting under the moon. I saw him drawing closer, starting his signature spin attack when suddenly a humongous tree in front of the titan fell in it's path, followed by a second, much more active titan. Levi changed course, if what we knew about titan was true, the active one was far more of threat than the dormant one. If we were right, the first titan would simple stay there, not doing anything as long as he didn't get too close. He flew out of sight after the second titan. I couldn't see him anymore, but a loud crash told me he'd killed it.
But then the first titan turned toward the sound, and started moving! Levi! He didn't know it was after him! It started to move faster, I couldn't just sit there and watch.
Even with my gear half busted, I didn't even think. I launched forward with my right hip and pushed my body to spin, turning so I could launch forward again with the same hip. I felt the muscles in my lower back and hips screaming at the strain, it was hurting my entire body to do this, but it didn't matter, just a little closer!!
I had my blades out, I was rushing forward in a terrible spin-launch rhythm, when I spotted Levi far below. I could hardly make him out through the smoke and dark, but there he was. My pupils shrink in horror, he was trapped, pinned beneath a massive tree limb, probably ripped form the trees as the titan had fallen. This other titan drew nearer to him, starting to run, it had a smile that went back too far, almost to it's ears. I hate the smiling ones. I decided. I hate them all, but I hate those most. it was coming for him, but it didn't see a fallen tree in it's path, the one knocked over my the first titan and it started to trip right as my 3d gear planted a hook right in it's spine. It screamed, but I slammed against it and ran up it's back, faster than it's terrible fingers, reaching it neck and slicing out that critical gash. It was dead. It fell the rest of the way to land steaming and lifeless on the earth. I ran and jumped off it's shoulder, straight for my trapped captain. The tree limb was merely a splinter of itself, but it was taller than I was, and I couldn't have wrapped my arms around it's girth. I ran forward using all my momentum to push it. Perhaps the combined strength of three or more men could push this off of him, but I was just me. I could't leave him here to look for help or wait for someone to find us. We'd be titan fodder, or if not, he'd lose circulation in his legs. I couldn't think, I had to work immediately.
I cried out at the exertion as Levi struggled to get free as well. My boots slid back against the forest floor, but the limb was moving. I pushed harder and something in my shoulder gave out with a white hot tearing sensation, I all but screamed but pushed through it. I felt it rock, I grit my teeth.
"Let it go!" ordered Levi, I heard him get free and I obeyed with another cry, jumping back to avoid being crushed by it.
I expected him to hit me, or yell at me for disobeying his order to stay put. Instead he slumped against a tree clutching his right leg.
"Is it broken?" I asked, holding out my hands as if to help him.
"I'm fine," he answered, "but my gear is shot."
I cursed. Now we were stuck, up river without a paddle. We'd never make it far like this. I felt myself suddenly bristling, so much for not needing me, he'd be dead without me and he knew it. We were even, but regardless, that didn't help us now, except that we were both alive and only had each other to thank.
I looked around, there was no where we could go besides the roots of the enormous tree.
"Come on," I said, "at least we can hide here."
He scoffed, "There's no hiding from them."
That was the last thing said for a long time. I was sore all over, the most pain coming from my lower back, my left hip, and my shoulder most of all. I noticed though, that Levi was putting a lot of pressure on his right leg, and his white pants were red down to his knee. That was a lot of blood, at this rate he'd pass out. I pushed myself forward and untucked my shirt, pulling the fabric until it tore. "What are you doing?" he asked, a hint of surprise in his voice that threatened reprimanding.
"Making you a tourniquet, what's it look like?"
He seemed about to say something but thought better of it. Once again my girlish heart started pounding; his thigh, I was going to tie a tourniquet around his thigh! I tried to be professional and not think about how close my hands were to such an intimate place, even fantasizing was pointless. We were both very injured, and realistically something like that would never happen between us. I pulled the fabric tight, but my shoulder screamed in protest. I couldn't use that arm very well it seemed and Levi's hands slid over mine so he could tie it himself. I quickly pulled my hands away, secretly happy he'd touched them, even if they had only been in the way.
Satisfied with his knot, I looked up and saw his eyes. The same face as always, some mixture of sadness and anger, a permanent shadow over his expression of one who has seen more horror than any human should have to bear. I immediately looked away, glad of teh darkness hiding my blush, though perhaps he'd see it in the moonlight anyway.
"Thanks," he said finally, after staring at me forever.
I nodded, "I should thank you too," I started. he was safe. I knew how dangerous my actios had been, how we both could have died. But his actions were dangerous too, there was a chance we could have slipped by unnoticed. We had both been reckless. "We all need each other." I said, as if to reprehend his statement about not needing me, "Always."
I saw his eyes harden, and then soften every so slightly.
It was growing cold, but the respect I saw in his eyes warmed me.
"There they are!" came a voice from above, it was our squad. I was relieved, but I couldn't move. My muscles where locking up from sitting too long. We were saved that night, in more ways than one. We had even saved each other. We'd never forget it.
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