Taking the white fluff ball into her arm's Kuma looking at her as his white ears laid back as if knowing something was wrong. Yet how could a rabbit know this? Going down the walkways Eri had tears down her cheeks but why? Sitting down it one of the window sills she held Kuma close. Of late these secret moments where often. She Knew with a security guard she had to be very careful. Yet she didn't feel right to have these moments around her new roommate. It was the start of winter. 

Loving winter on one hand hating it for some reason on the another. Setting Kuma down on her lap she pulled out a picture of three people Her as a little one probably not even a year old. The other two she only vaguely remembered. A mother with long snow white hair much like her own, white eyes as if they were made of crystal. A father with bright blue eyes and blond hair so light it could be white just with the sun shining on it. Holding the child so close. 

Today after all was the day she lost them, her mother and father though she does not remember she knows it is them, who else could it be. Her grandmother told her about them but she only remembers light memories herself. The occasional feeling of warmth from one of there hugs or maybe when the wind flies buy her she feels like her farther twirled her around. When she holds kuma she wonders why the feeling is familiar did they have rabbits before did they give her a stuff toy of a rabbit, she wish she could remember more one thing she does remember is a song.. her mother sang.

Starting it as a hum the words only joined as a whispers as tears fell. As each word rang down the hall her hair fell to her face yet a smile can be seen through tears as a rabbit paws at Eri. As the tune fades away Foot steps come up to her giving her only a moment to hide Kuma into her uniform jacket. 


OC   this is the song i was listening to where i thought of the song , sorry this start is a little bit of a downer i didn't attend it to be but Eri isn't usually the type to sneak around like this unless its for a good reason .    youtu.be/lkzMXiIcc0g?list=PLHv6-K_NfFVejcJLIjeap5t31a5ARD4wj

Eva had recently added something to her routine of duties latley as she had been keeping an eye on a young girl who tried her best to cry alone. Eva didn't understand why but she just felt a connection to her and wanted to ensure she remained safe but today was no better then usual and the tall woman couldn't really take just watching anymore. She knew she took an oath to stay out of the students lives but she felt that maybe it was ok to help every now and again. She straightened her blue beret and brushed off her blazer and pants before pushing her glasses up the bridge of her nose and then covered her left eye with a free strand of hair. Worried that her blind eye might scare the girl who was obviously distraught. She then made her presence known as she left her hiding place and the heavy thud of her boots filled the clearing. The girl would see Eva's giant form looking down to her as she walked up to the girl and looked her in the eyes. “What are you doing here?” she asked sternly as she looked about and could see the white fur of a rabbit on the girls uniform as well as a moving lump that obviously shouldn't be there. Eva held her hand out and gestured to the rabbit with a cold gaze. “You are no doubt aware of the schools policy on having pets on campus?...... Only staff are allowed to keep them.” she kept her cold gaze fixed on the girl as she gestured again. “may I see him... the rabbit?” She asked sternly as she showed she wanted the rabbit in her hand. “I wish to see it as I am certain even if your hair is white you do not shed that much and you didn't have that moving lump when I saw you head over here.”

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It was her worst fears someone had found her with Kuma , and unlike Shoka sama they stood firm to the school rules , the figure after all was the security guard for the campus. She knew this was a risk but she didn't expect it stil. Though she had been braver then when she first started this all changed as her sadness turned to fear and once wiped away tears returned she held her jacket looking at the figure yet it seemed as if she was looking past the woman as if hoping for a way out , a prince would be handy as of now. Standing she spoke softly. " I realize i have done wrong i am willing to confess my sins and take the punishment as needed but ... "

Knowing full well that Kuma was more of the concern she spoke up " B-but please don't take my friend away from me.."

Though she did not wish to give him she new it would make things worse if she held to him any longer. Reaching into her school uniform she took him out, Though he is not a baby he is quite a small rabbit for his age so it was not a hard task to take him out. Holding him close nuzzling him whispering words of apology and love she hesitantly held him for the stern woman to take. Now Though Eri did not really know what was going to happen she feared the worse. 

She gently took the small creature into her large hand, easily fitting it within her palm. She then gestured for the girl to follow her as she procured a key from her pocket and handed it to her. "You will need this for later..." she barely murmured to her as she began to walk to the St. lulim dorms. Once inside she quickly made her way to a room simply labeled security but inside was just a simple dorm room. There was hardly anything inside save for the bed and the writing desk and the window was left cracked letting in a cool breeze. She sat the small rabbit on the bed and then looked to Eri before closing the door as to not be heard. "Do you have any cages or food?.... anything you have for this animal to live?" she asked as she pet the small creature. "If you wish you may keep him here... I hardly spend much time here so you will not have to deal with me and you can simply come here to cry and enjoy his company. The key I gave you is the spare to this room so use it whenever." She then waited for the girls response.

Whipping her tears or attempting to she thought of how the hall ways seemed rather long, more so now then usual. She watched how Eva opened the door looking at Kuma then back at the door. She was surprised when a thick key touched her skin looking at the tall woman she took it nodding but not really hearing what is was for until she heard the next question did she have food and a cage . Her knees trembledcould this be happening ? Before she had thought of the answer she  hugging both Kuma and Eva . She hadn't really meant to but her happyness was over welming . She only could nod at the moment but took a small breath and stood up " yes I have all that thank you, thank you so much."  Bowing she whipped the last tears from her face.

Eva flinched as eh was suddenly hugged by the girl and somewhat looked around somewhat confused on how to react to this, she was never very used to any real physical contact with another but she tried her best to be caring for the situation. She looked about and was about to try hugging the girl back to comfort her before she pulled away from the embrace and she could see she had already done right for this girl. "Ummm.... uh you... you should go ahead and show me to your r...room now so i can help you move your pets housing to my room. I...IF one of the other teachers see you moving it they might ask questions, they wont speak to me though.... they seem to be intimidated by me." She finished as she walked to the door hoping she didn't come off to cold but she didn't want to seem to kind either. She looked to a small table by the door and grabbed the spare key to her room and pocketed it before looking to Eri and tried to smile to comfort her though she hadn't smiled in years really so it appeared awkward.

The woman seemed kind enough, a tad awkward but Eri remembered how she was when she got here, granted it was a bit different but what helped her was friends. As she lead Eva to her room she spoke up " I and Kuma are grateful to you, and we would love to be friends with you if that would be alright that is ."

Each step she took she realized how much she had grown and how many friends she had made. She thought to herself how Eva should be added to her christmas list, maybe just a little something. Making a mental note of thi she unlocked her room " Oh please wait here id hate to wake my roommate up. "

Going inside she made sure not to forget anything , food,toys, bedding, the makeshift cage, and even her own perfume, seeing as how it helps Kuma be calm when shes away if might help Eva as well. Leaving her room she Nodding to the older woman to let her know she got every thing that Kuma needed. " You have everything you need Kuma doesn't eat much but if he gets a little too hoppy just give him a carrot and it will keep him busy. as far as when you have to leave just give a little spray of this on the floor of his cage and he will be a little more calm, i will visit as much as i can and take him out for his daily hopping as i call it, his toys need to be accessible at all times or he will get bored and explore, other then that he loves cuddles and is use to sleeping with me... so if you could at least do it once in awhile i am sure he'll be grateful. other then that i will do all the harder stuff i will come by every day and clean your room for you and make sure all is good with his health, if he nibbles on anything let me know an i will replace it. "

Smiling she looked at the older woman " thank you again."

Eva sighed as the girl mentioned being friends and she nodded. "Unfortunately as you know students aren't really supposed to befriend there staff, especially the security staff. Please just treat me as your security officer and i will take care of your little pet the best of my abilities...." Eva paused, somewhat hating herself for even being proper about this but she also knew that if she started making exceptions she likely would end up being horrible at her job so she would try and keep up her facade of duty as much as possible. "I am helping you with this because you need it... because you need the help and not because i want to be friends. Its because you need the comfort...." Eva knew this sounded a little cold but she had to try and draw the line somewhere. Eva listened intently to how the girl took care of her rabbit and knew that this would be a little tougher then need be but knew that she could handle it. "Do not clean my room for me, the room is mine and mine alone but the rabbit is yours so if anything just keep your pet clean and we wont have problems ok?"

Eri noded she had forgotten about how this woman was indeed staff and on top of that the security guard so when the woman became cold to her Eri actually had a bit of a hard time not smiling more, Eva reminded her of her grandmother that took her in, strong, strict but caring. They would be great friends , She tried not to laugh at the thought. 

Yet then she thought of what Eva had said , she needed this, needed the comfort, what did she mean? After all the older woman was correct but besides tonight how would she know. Then a question left her own lips, not even she expected it " You've been keeping a eye on me haven't you....."

Once said she felt a sigh leave her, This woman that hide behind ice needed to know at least a little, who knows maybe all Eri needed was to vent at this moment to someone who cared but didnt or couldnt really get to know her before she thought of it more she spoke " They aperantly where driving, i was in the back and we were headed to the temple for christmas prayer, it was apparently icy... and there was a crash, my mother and father unhooked there belts and covered me right before we hit, my grandmother told me not to long ago we would have all died no matter what but them doing what they did saved my life.... it was on this day, and even though i don't really remember anything, or even them i still cry..."

She stopped walking only for a moment to collect herself " i just thought you should know why you watch a crying girl of late."

Then she smiled back at the taller woman before walking on.

Eva listened quite closely to every word that Eri said as they brought all of her things down to her room. She unlocked the door and held it open for Eri before closing the door behind her and gestured for her to take a seat in a chair before sitting down on the bed herself. She looked to Eri and smiled at her but this time it was a genuine smile and not the awkwardness she showed off earlier. "I've seen you go there... to that same spot for the past few weeks. I watched at first just to understand... to try and find out if it was serious but do you know how I found out you were having bad issues?" she asked with an almost completely different voice from earlier, the stern icy glaze of her words was replaced with one of genuine caring and kindness. "I knew because its the same thing i did back in Afghanistan.... I know none of you know as i asked the head mistress to keep my history a secret but I was a soldier before this... a soldier for America." she sighed to herself and then smiled again. "I lost a lot of friends.... and... and I hid it away instead of talking to others. That ruined me....it ruined my family, it almost ended my life but i pushed on.... now im here and I can help you... help you through tough times. So.... So if you need to talk...or... just need someone to cry too then... then just find me ok?"

To fight out Eva was in a war a battle where she had to watch friends die and people like us on the other side die and be called enemies . Eri now was the one who listened to feel how Eva felt to try and understand what the older woman went through. For the woman to be so kind to have gone through all of that and still be willing to help Eri with her own problems. Eri could only nod to thank for the offer, finally she spoke up " Y-you may as well i know i am no adult and i am sure it is another rule to brake but i am a great listener , though if you would rather not i understand but surprisingly Kuma is a good one to talk to.."

She smiled at Eva she knew that the tall woman was staff and that she had a job to do but the idea that she had somewhere to go if she need to to be alone or with to talk with Eva made Eri more happy than anyone knew. She set everything up for Eva and gave Kuma a bit of a petting whispering to him that she will visit soon. Standing she bowed she new it was formal but for all Eva did for America she new little of the wars there, she new about them yes but she was told by her family not to worry, but to honor all that faut any war. 

" I know this is formal but i thank you again for fighting in such a war, you are a brave person that did not deserve to see such things. "

She stood biting her lip a little worried that she said too much she might have been better to keep it to a thank you, or should she have done that ? was wrong to do so, she new very little on what to do to honor someone.. 

Eva couldn't help but smile at the girls words but it was more one of enjoyment then relief. "No need to worry about me little one, I've been through things many would never know and would prefer to keep it that way. Your so young yet you've been through so much still.... Id like to be your friend even if we need to change the title to keep within school standards.....senior, Mentor?...." she began to think of what she could be called but then the girl stood and bowed to her in a respectful manner. Truth be told Eva never really knew how to take the gratitude of others for her service in the army and was partially why she didn't want the dean to tell anyone about it but she did feel a little warm inside when she heard thank you. She blushed slightly at the words and turned her head to try and hide it but oddly enough it made the large woman appear even more cute. "N.....no i....I don't ne.... I mean I..I... Im just...." she was a little to flustered to answer properly as this was a major one of her weaknesses. She bowed her head down in embarrassment and murmured out. "Th....thank you..."

she knew she had embarrassed Eva, she hadn't meant to but it happened. Eri thought she should say something but decided against it after all she knew how it was to be embarrassed. So she left a smile on her face and waited as she left her bow stance. she then took her thoughts elsewhere, what would she call a friend that was older and a staff, though Eva's options were probably correct she felt they might be to disconnect. Although that was only how she felt.

She thought for a moment more but realized had also said thank you so she decided it was a good time to speak up " It wasn't anything, but your welcome-"

Ah ha that was it " Ue-sama, this way i haven't used your name so if i want to talk to someone i can use it without them knowing it was you, besides Ue , means i have the up most respect for you, and that is very true,Ue-sama.."

A blush had crept onto Eri's face, it was a bit of shyness but also the fact she realized how much she did look up to her new friend surprised her a bit.