I just checked my email to find a very sad message. I was informed that Monday evening, on the 28th of March 2011. The person who played Honoka Fukyoko passed away.

From what I know about her she was a player from over seas in Asia. She was so sweet too, and polite, she really was, at least to me, one of our most adorable characters in and out of the rp. Even though I wasn't on much and didn't know her that well.

Looking around...to look in the cbox and see she posted just one day before her death...it makes me want to cry....Too late, I'm crying. Rereading her posts, to think someone as sweet as her..is really gone fromt his world.

It's more than losing a member of a website...it's a real girl, a human being...she's really passed on.

So to my girls, in the rp, or in real life. If you are religous or not, if you care or don't, if you knew her, or didn't...I hope your hearts are with me when I say:

Dear Honoka-chan,

Even though we only knew you for such a short time, we know that you're in a better place now, we love you, and you will be missed, a candle will always burn for you here....

To the person reading this right now free to add to this thread, we're all here for you...I just hope this thread isn't overlooked.

-tear, tear, sniffle-

oh Honoka...I wish I had known your real name..

Honoka, I really wish we got to know each other better. There's so much that we could have talked about, and I envy your courage. Your sister told me all about how you lived with such optimism.

I want you to know, you live on in our hearts. You inspired me, with the words I read that you wrote. I'm understanding the value of living now thanks to you.

For that, I know that you'll always live on with us, in our hearts and minds. I now know why you chose Kaori as your character, too. I just hope that this small post can serve as enough of a reminder to those who love you that we are always going to remember you.

And for you, I found a song that really describes how I felt when I first heard about this.

In wake of this tradgedy, I am posting again to announce that Honoka's character will be taken over by her sister, Haruka. Also, Arciea and I have decided she will be head of Miator studen council...you know what that means, the timeline will finally start moving! That means season changes, elections and finally 8 months from today another pair will take Rin's place as etoile!

I hope everyone can get through this, happy roleplaying!

Wow, even though I didn't really know her, this is so sad to me. It's strange to know how one day a person is there and the next they aren't. I wish I had known her but them again I don't. I say that because I might be effected much more than I am. I might be pretty stable with death but it's still hard to deal with when it's someone you're close to. Even so, I will send out a prayer to her family for their comfort in this time of sadness.

~Dear Heavenly Father,
I pray whole heartedly that you will lift up Honoka's family and allow them to know that she is in a better place. Please comfort them in knowing that you will take care of her forever and that there is no need to worry. Also, please Lord, give them peace. Allow them to be happy that she is now blanketed by your everlasting love. Let them know that she fulfilled her purpose, your purpose, in this world by touching the lives of the ones around her. Now she doesn't have heartache or tears. There is only laughter and joy in her heart, Lord.

In Jesus' holy, precious name I pray,
Amen~

That's so sweet Rachel...

I just found a message from my other character, Asami's birthday from Honoka. I'm sad that I hadn't logged into that account to see it sooner. She was the only person to wish Asami a happy birthday, and if it had really been my birthday I would have cried. It was the sweetest message I've ever read. Bless you Honoka, we'll miss you.

I didn't know Honoka and I realize this was posted back in 2011, but its not too late to say a prayer right?
In the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, Amen.
Dear Lord,
Honoka is no longer with us and is with you in Heaven now... Her family and friends must miss her very much. Help them push on, they will never forget her. I never met her, since I just joined this site recently, but based on what everyone else said, she sounded like an awesome person. Thank you Lord/
In the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, Amen.

Thank you for posting something here....this thread feels like visiting her grave, if I were talking to you, I'd be whispering so as to not disturb the silence. She was a wonderful person and a great member. It means a lot that someone so brand new would post in this thread and say a few words for her even without having known her. Thank you very much.

...now I'll hush and quietly observe the burning candle in a moment of silence.

The site tells me it's your birthday Honoka.

Hope you're enjoying it, wherever you may be.

Happy birthday to the wonderful Honoka-chan, who I never was able to meet, though I'm sure was a wonderful girl. May you forever be in our hearts, here.

Happy Birthday Honoka,

I hope your sister is doing well today, I know she loves and misses you a lot. We will always remember you here. May you walk through the Summerland with Pan and The Morrigan at your side and always dance in the magic circle.

Blessed be.

Happy birthday Honoka!

Happy Belated Birthday, Honoka. I was never able to meet you, but I know you must have been an amazing person. I'm sure you'll be missed forever in the hearts of everyone here. God bless...

i know this happened long before i even knew about this site but this was actually the first thread i looked at on this site at first i just saw it as people sending condolences to someone they dont actually know but after reading some of her posts i realized she truly was a beautiful soul and i wish i had been on this site while she was around and when i saw the posts she made in the sig request it broke my heart the way she always apoologized even when no apology was needed like when she apologized to rin for not knowing how to get the link to the pictures she wanted or when she apologized for even requesting the sig but what really made me cry was her thank you message for the completed sig:

Good evening.
Thank you for your beautifully finished work.
I'm so exited to use this and see this appear on my posts.
Your works are very beautiful as you.
Thank you for this and for being nice to everyone. ^^

it almost seems like fate that she modeled her character after kaori those of us who new her during her time on this site feel the pain of loss like shizuma did those new to the site such as myself are like nagisa who still feel the pain even though they were not around at the time i never knew her but it feels like ive suffered a loss im sure that if she could she would apologize to us all for leaving

So... I really hope noone minds me doing this. I've come here to read the posts and pay respects every once in a while, but I thought that, with Lughnasadh comig up, I could do something a bit more personal?

I know I never knew Honoka personally but as far as I'm concerned ALL members of this site are my family, and so, if you all don't mind, I'd like to say a prayer to Hecate?

)O(

Gracious Goddess above, wise crone who rules over all those who have passed, I pray that Honoka has passed into your able hands and that you have guided her to wherever she is suppossed to be in the life after. Please protect her soul and guide her as she continues on her path, wherever it is she is meant to be.

Blessed be.

)O(

This year, on Lughnasadh, the celebration of the summer harvest and a time to give thanks for all we have, I shall have a candle burning in thanks to Honoka, for helping to make this beautiful site into what it is today, and for pavin the way for people like me to love it.

Thank you, Honoka. I wish I had known you.

Having heard of dear Honoka-chan's forum just now, I feel compelled to give my respects to her. Even though I hadn't heard of her, or known her or anything at all. She was clearly a very valued and very special person to us. And to lose a member of your family, is almost to lose a part of yourself.

Honoka-chan, thank you for showing us what it means to persevere and be strong. Yet at the same time, so kind and gentle. Thank you for touching the many lives you did. Thank you for being our friend .

We'll always remember you, always. And you'll always be in our hearts.