Seeing the girl coming towards her she pushed the door she was holding even more open for the girl to pass through, expecting her to walk outside without more words spoken. Instead the blond grabbed her hands, making the door close yet again, and made the president look straight at her. Surprise was clearly visible in the taller girl’s eyes and her mouth fell slightly open as the other girl started to speak. What the girl then told Nayuki made her eyes widen and she closed her mouth, biting her lower lip as well. How could she say such a thing? About her? Yes, she had to admit that it had been her goal. To be admired and looked up to, to be seen as wonderful and graceful. But the way Kaminari said this made the president nervous and there was a simple reason to that, she wasn’t going to have people that truly cared for her. In the years after the accidents in her life that had taken away her closest family she had built up a cold side that was supposed to prevent people from getting close to her. To stop them from loving and caring for her, just like her family had.

Her eyes saddened at what Kaminari told her and she looked down at their hands when she told Nayuki that she had seen the worst of the worst people and gritted her teeth, mumbling “I’m sorry to hear that,” to the first part of the girl’s speech. Then she looked up again when the other blue-eyed girl told her she could tell when she had found someone that wasn’t bad and that she wanted to be surrounded by such people, and that Nayuki was one of the people she wanted to have in her life. ‘Please stop…’ The president inwardly begged at those affectionate and beautiful words. Also the girl’s voice was soft and loving, and even though her look told she harboured regret after uttering such words it was clear that she truly meant it. Nayuki was weak to things that were tied to people’s past, knowing too well how it could affect one’s current way of living, acting and desire. When Kaminari mentioned the person most special to her, the president remembered when the girl had told her about her friend. Her best friend that had died under tragic circumstances and guessed this was the one Kaminari had mentioned. It would sadden her deeply when the other girl brought up her friend, but the dark haired girl truly admired her for always being able to speak about her friend in a mature manner.

Nayuki looked down again when Kaminari told her how important it was for the blond herself to feel like she was enough. That was something the flower designer wanted dearly as well but she told herself she wasn’t the one supposed to make the blond feel that way. ‘Please don’t say that… I’m all right being alone. Yes, I’m totally fine.’ She wanted to say, but didn’t manage to speak it out loud. Still when the girl finished talking she spoke up in a rather weak voice. “Kaminari… Please… Not me…” She took a deep breath and forced back a couple of tears. “If I told you…” Turning her head away she moved her hands out of the other girl’s grasp. “I’m sure you would despise me. That’s why I won’t say what I’ve done, but do know it was something bad… Something terrible that doesn’t give me the right to be cared for. In fact it doesn’t give me the right to care for you either, but you deserve someone that can be there for you. Someone with a pure heart that matches yours.”

Taking off the jacked on her school uniform the bare skin on her arms came to sight for the other girl. The third degree to fourth degree burns that had hurt her arms made the skin dry, leathery and twisted. It was obvious that it still needed treatment and affected the girl dearly. “These wounds every day reminds me of one of the sins I’ve committed in my life, most likely considered the worst. Please understand by looking at these that what I’ve done is horrible. If something like this would happen to you I…” Tears were now streaming down her cheeks and she desperately tried wiping them away, dropping the jacket down on the floor. “I’m sorry Kaminari… Please forgive me. I’m so sorry.” She spun around and pushed the door open. “Stay away from me,” The long haired girl said and ran out leaving the part of her uniform on the floor.
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NOTES: Oh, believe me she did! But she has her reasons for this reaction, and I’m a lover of drama after all *angel face * And the speech was really good and beautiful! Gee- I'm sorry for my long post ^-^"

Yup, I know you weren't expecting that hm? And this kind of makes it a little hard to continue here... Hum~ hum... Well, I could always send you a PM where we can chat ^w^

Kaminari watched as Nayuki ran out the door. "I really screwed it up didn't I?" she asked looking down at Momo and bending down to pick up the jacket. This is exactly the opposite of what she had hoped would happen. She ran away so there was not way of making this better for now. She really thought that she could make things better for the girl. Of course just because this happened didn't mean she was going to quit. She planned on making things better and when she set her mind to something there wasn't much that could set her off course. They where in the same grade so maybe they would be in the same classes or at least the class rooms would be relatively close. There was no way that she wouldn't run into her in the hall way at least.

She ran her hands through her hair and tugged a little out of stress. This really did get her down, she had been planning on hanging out with her when she was well but now the president would be trying to avoid her. Her blue eyes moved into the direction of the death lilies. What had happened to cause Nayuki to be so incredibly afraid of caring about someone. Everyone needs someone to care for them and someone to care for in return. Life would be lonely and upsetting if you felt like you had to be alone. She walked over to the flowers and touched them softly as if it would help her understand. Getting nothing from them she sat down on the bench.

She ran her finger over the threading of the piece of Nayuki's spica uniform she left behind. She would have to return this to her which would give an opportunity to talk to her and fix things. She hated herself for not being able to show enough self control to keep things plain and unstressful for the girl. She hated that she just had to go and open her big mouth and freak the girl out. She had to keep in mind that not everyone was like her. Some people where just scared to become close to someone. She got up and walked to the door and pushed it open. Still a little dizzy from the fever she stumbled outside to she if she could remember how to get back to the dorms.

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Naa I half expected that Haha I am not giving up though. and it's ok that it was long.

Message me and we will talk about when and where Kaminari tries to win back your Nayuki's affection it will be like an epic adventure